Most people, in the lead up to their wedding, do a lot of work on themselves. And by that, I mean they hire a personal trainer, flog the shit out of their bodies and go on crazy-restrictive fad diets. But not me.
As soon as I was engaged, I knew I wanted to get myself in shape, but not that sort of shape. I wanted to pump up my inner work, to make sure that when I was walking down that aisle, I was in the best possible spiritual and energetic place I could be.
So, being the total wellness nerd that I am, I committed to seeing an amazing energetic body worker (that title doesn’t even do him justice) named Abrar. He worked with me on releasing my emotional blockages, my leftover baggage, and any lingering beliefs that were weighing me down. So basically, anything that was keeping me stuck in the past and not in the here and now.
I have been doing a lot of work on myself for years now, and have let go of loads of crap already. But I’m not perfect, and it’s always an ongoing process. So I really wanted to delve deeper and make sure that I wasn’t unwittingly bringing any of my old crap into my marriage.
And I’m so glad I did.
Some of the stuff we released, I didn’t even know was there. Generations and generations of pain, hurt and anxiety were lodged deep in my body and energy fields, and I wasn’t even aware of it. Every session was painful yet ecstatic at the same time. I saw Abrar every two weeks in the lead up to the Big Day, and he commented how every time he saw me, my body was opening up more and more.
With each session, I felt myself being pulled apart, cracked open and stripped bare. And each time, a little more pain was released, making space for a little more sacred light to filter in.
My body responded well to the work, and I could really feel the difference. It was like my energy had made a tangible shift and my whole being was lighter and yet more grounded at the same time. In the week before my wedding, at our final session, Abrar said ‘you’re ready to go get married now’.