I used to really struggle with the word ‘abundance’. It felt self-righteous. Arrogant. And... well, not very ‘spiritual’. When I first started on my journey and heard people throwing it around left, right and centre, it made me squirm. But you know what? It was all my shit! I didn't realise this at the time, but I had blocks around abundance and manifesting, which is why nothing was flowing and I wasn’t experiencing abundance in any area of my life. Back then, I couldn’t work out why my health wasn’t soaring, why my relationships weren’t overflowing, and why I could never get a break in my career or finances. Turns out, it was because I had blocks around abundance and manifesting.
My Mean Girl told me...
You don’t deserve X, Y and Z.
Abundance doesn’t happen to people like you.
Who do you think you are, trying to manifest this and that?
Get over yourself! You will never be overflowing in your health, wealth or love.
Then I mastered her and realised that I needed to get serious about manifesting what I desired in my life. But I started manifesting from a place of fear...
I must have perfect health because I am scared of getting sick again.
I want to heal from chronic fatigue because I am over feeling like crap.
I want to call in my life partner because I am tired of being alone.
I want to find my soul mate because I feel empty on my own, and I need someone outside myself to validate my worthiness and fill the void within me.
I want more money because I must get out of debt.
I want more clients because I need money to pay my bills.
I desperately want to find something that I’m passionate about, because my life currently sucks and there’s got to be more out there than this.
I was manifesting just like all the spiritual books and teachers told me to do… and nothing was happening. Absolutely nada. I was still unwell and unhappy, so I decided that all the manifesting hocus pocus I’d heard so much about simply mustn’t work.
That is, until I realised something massive: that I was manifesting from a place of fear. Instead of attracting in the things I desired from a place of love, I was trying to call in want I wanted while swimming in a puddle of fear… no wonder it wasn’t working! But I was serious about achieving abundance in all areas of my life, so I thought I may as well give this whole ‘manifesting from a place of love’ thing a go. So I did!
Instead of saying, ‘I must have perfect health because I am scared of getting sick again’, I changed it around to the present tense and started saying, ‘I am healthy, strong, energetic, vital and supplement free’.
Instead of saying, ‘I want to call in my life partner because I am sick of being alone’, I started saying, ‘I am whole and complete and ready to share my completeness with another beautiful being’.
Instead of saying, ‘I want more money because I must get out of debt’, I started saying, ‘I have complete financial freedom and money is a source of happiness for me’.
Instead of saying, ‘I want more clients because I need money to pay my bills’, I started saying, ‘Client's flow to me with ease and grace’.
And instead of saying, ‘I desperately want to find something that I’m passionate about because my life currently sucks and there’s got to be more out there than this’, I started saying, ‘I am open to trying new things, feeling into what lights me up, and following my curiosity’.