Thank you so much for giving me space and sending all your love and support these past few weeks. I have felt your love, warmth and generosity and I am truly grateful.
I still can’t actually believe I am writing this, but I feel called to share this in the hopes it may inspire you in times of adversity.
These past few weeks have absolutely brought me to my knees. My best friend, soul sister, hero and biggest inspiration found her wings and decided it was time to fly. This, however, wasn’t the plan. We were meant to go on a holiday to Hawaii this year and I was meant to be a bridesmaid at her wedding in September. But the Universe had a different plan for this angel. And although there’s pain, I am so truly grateful for the time we got to share and I feel ok knowing she is now with her mama, dancing in the clouds.
This experience has allowed me to feel feelings I never knew possible. I have been cracked wide open and had my heart ripped out of my chest and put back in. It’s tested me and pushed me to really step up and practice everything I preach. I have allowed myself to grieve fully and completely and with the support of my darling husband — who would hold me for hours as I wept my heart out — I have been able to express myself truthfully in every moment.
Throughout it all, I have observed the waves of different emotions washing over me, knowing that I am not that emotion. And I have allowed my body to fully feel everything that needs to be felt. It’s been challenging, but it has already made me a better person and more resilient. Exactly what Jess would have wanted.
You see, Jess was and still is my biggest teacher. She taught me so many things — how to follow your dreams, how to tread more lightly with myself, how to live a life of passion and purpose, and — of course — how to do a coffee enema (!). Now, every day, she reminds me that I am love, that love is all around me, that my truth is love and that you can close your eyes and in an instant you can return back to love.
She was only here for a short time, but I think we can all agree: she made one hell of an impact.
Even though her physical body is no longer here, I feel more connected to Jess than ever before. I feel her all around me.
(Actually the other night my husband and I were getting out of the shower and he said, ‘Do you think Jess can see us right now?’ as he quickly covered his privates. We both burst out laughing and I truly felt her laughing along with us.)
I feel her warmth and her essence constantly guiding me. This doesn’t stop the waves of sadness, pain, anger and frustration, but when you realize we are not this body, it’s liberating to know deep down that she is everywhere and everything. And the truth is, all our loved ones who have passed are everywhere and everything. Feeling their presence is as simple as connecting with your heart. Opening up to stillness. Holding space inside you for their love to live always.
I’ve also felt so much comfort from Mother Nature during this time. The sunrise, the ocean, the trees, a random gust of eddying wind — I see Jess in all of it.
When the waves of sadness do come, I like to take a moment to really feel Jess — to sense her warm smile, see her sparkly bright blue eyes, and let her love wash over me. I feel her presence all around me in every moment, inspiring me to be more, to step out of my comfort zone, to reach further and to push that little bit extra… even when I feel like I have nothing left to give.
No matter how utterly sad I’ve felt, I’ve also been keenly aware of something else too: A rainbow is made up of all different colors. For a rainbow to be a rainbow, you can’t simply skip over certain colors, or leave one out altogether. To be complete, they all need to be there. As I witnessed the entire spectrum of emotions wash over me, again and again (sometimes seemingly all at once) I tried to visualize them as the bands of a rainbow. I knew they all had to be there, and I tried not to judge them or get stuck in the story of the emotion.
It’s also been really powerful to sense where the emotion is in my body — my gut, my heart, my sternum, the base of my spine… When you allow your body to do its thing, you’re allowing yourself a true experience. Instead of suppressing your emotions or distracting yourself, you’re fully allowing nature to run its course. It really is a beautiful thing.
Still, at the moment, no matter how well I ‘deal’, my thoughts haven’t strayed far from my beautiful girl. She inspired millions around the world. She lived and breathed her message.
She lived and breathed love.
It’s been so moving to see the outpouring of grief and tributes over the past week — far and wide, from people who had the privilege of calling her friend, to people who’d never even met this angel but who’d still been so touched and inspired by her.
If you’ve been feeling this pain too, I see you. I hear you. And next time you find yourself faced with any challenge, you now have the shiniest of stars to guide you back home.
So take what this goddess has taught you and live it every single day. Think about what you truly admired in Jess, than fully and completely embody that quality.
Let’s make her proud. Let’s go out and live as our best selves and champion what she so elegantly embodied.
The best thing is you don’t have to do this alone. One of the other biggest lessons Jess taught me was the power of sisterhood, the power of belonging to a tribe and sharing the journey. (In fact, that very lesson is what sparked the dream to create this space; this epic MA Tribe right here, and I’m so endlessly grateful that you’re a part of it.) It’s a powerful lesson — reaching out to others, even when we want nothing more than to curl up in a ball and block out the world — and it can change everything…
So reach out to your people: smile at a stranger, be present for your family, call a friend and ask how they are going (and really mean it). Take a moment to just sit and be still, get off your phone, close your laptop, turn off the TV and really connect with your loved ones. Say ‘I love you’ every single day, laugh hysterically, dance your buns off and be a nice human (life is so much better that way). Don’t fill those juicy moments of white space with mindless crap or endless scrolling through Instagram. Life’s too short, so please make sure you live it.
We are all in this together, never forget that. And remember: you simply being here is a pure miracle.
Be Kind. Be Brave. Be Free.
Dear Melissa
Your words are touching my heart. Nothing can equate the depth of grieveing and loss of a very close friend. I send you love and light your way and as each day passes may you feel lighter. The essence of Jess wil alwyas stay with you.
Warm Hug
Manasi
I cried and cried and cried when I was reading this. Thank you so much for sharing this, for being so sincere and inspiring. Love you.
It’s just so incredibly and devastatingly sad. Truly feeling this with you and I have never met Jess. I’m so sorry for your loss :(. Sending huge love. Love transcends physical being xxx
Hi Mel,
Thank you for this beautiful, inspiring piece. I was so so sadden when I heard the news and thought of you straight away, but I’m real happy to hear you are holding up well. xo
A divine tribute Melissa. Thank you.
Dear Melissa,
Beautiful words. It is very humbling to read and feel the greatness in you and your love for beautiful Jess.
I am one of those who hadn’t met her but felt so profoundly her loss. And felt your loss too. And I keep witnessing the good and the love that she keeps bringing through you.
It is magical. It is honoring. And it is so empowering.
To you, and to Jess.
LOVE… ALWAYS
Ines.
Wow Melissa your words are beautiful.
Jess will always be with you. She touched my life by introducing me to Marie Forleo and BSchool and is a true inspiration on a daily basis to live the live I love. I know my life would be very different if it hadn’t been for that one email on BSchool and the hand holding to sign up.
Such sad sad news but we have to rejoice in the life she led and be thankful that she was in our lives (in whatever form) for albeit a short time.
Grace and beauty
xxxx
Thank you thank you Melissa! All the love in your words has consumed me and I feel Jess’ presence and joy that you are continuing to share her message. So much inspiration. All my love is being sent your way. Amanda xxx
Ps I got married on the weekend yay (I’ll send you a photo)! And every time I stopped to reflect on what was going on around me, I felt so much love and joy. Thank you to you and Jess for teaching me this mindset!
Waaauw Melissa! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ you are such a beautiful person!
Wow this brought tears to my eyes. I didn’t have the privilege to call myself a friend of this beautiful angel or even get to know about her as soon as I wish I did. I only heard about her last month and I feel so honored that I had that chance. Ironically the day she flight to the stars I was at the supermarket buying some veggies for my green juice and thought: “wich ones would Jess buy?”then I came home and heard about what happened, I felt it like it was a close friend.
I just have to thank the Universe to give me the chance to know about this precious precious princess and about you Melissa. I feel so inspired by you. Please keep going with your amazing work, kind and magical words, the world needs your love. And I’m pretty sure that Jess will be with you every step of the way.
All my love,
Filipa.
Adore you honey, and this is just beautiful xo
Beautiful…The only way I can describe your words Melissa. So moving. Thank you.
Sending you much love and light x
Stunning and beautiful words Melissa. Thank you x
İ feel your emotions while reading i cried . İ guess you were also crying in the same places
This newsletter is the most emitional one
From my point jess gift to you is expressing your feelings mellissa . This is great and use that more this will bring out much more great works
İ love you
Thank you for sharing your ( and Jess’s) beautiful message, Melissa. You are both angels!
Beautifully put Melissa, I am thinking of you at this difficult time. I never had the privilege to meet Jess but followed her for the past few years, she is an angel and one who has inspired me and taught me so much. Thank you for the reminder to embody all she taught – I will honour this. Take care, light and love xxx
Hi Melissa,
What a beautiful post about a beautiful woman who inspired so many.
Sending you a million hugs xxx
Michelle
You truly are an inspiration, and a beautiful guiding light. Thank you for sharing something so personal with us Mel, big love to you beautiful lady.
xxx
What a beautiful post Melissa.
I followed Jess’s blog since the beginning, she was really an inspiration for me. I read some post over and over again. Sometimes, I scrolled back to the beginning of her blog, and read all the posts one after an other. It’s because of Jess I’m here, and that I follow your blog.
I have been really touched by what happened, and I thought of it every single day.
Be well Melissa. You’re great.
With love from France,
Nina
Dearest Melissa,
You have been on my mind so much lately, I have been constantly sending you love and support. I think like most people, when someone builds their wings to fly (as you so beautifully put it) we tend to think of the people who are left behind and feeling the pain.
You wrote about your beautiful angel so lovingly. Jess truly touched my life in so many ways and I have cried so much the last few weeks. What an amazing woman to have strangers crying over her passing.
Something that really resonated with me was how you spoke about *living*, putting down the phone from mindless Instagram scrolling and connect with our loved ones. So incredibly true! We tend to put so much focus on things that are not true reality. How Jess lived is such a testament to the gift she is to all of us. She is a beautiful example of how to live fully and be present in each and every moment.
Both you and Jess are lighthouses.
Sending you all my love darling Melissa. xxxx
Hi Melissa,
It is so sad about Jess’s passing and I feel for you losing her. Thankyou for writing those beautiful words and it makes sense and I will try and put it into practice . I’m so scared of losing my loved ones but will remember what you have said, thanks Melissa.XX
such beautiful words. Jess was an angel on Earth and now an angel of the universe. All my love to you, Melissa xx
Melissa, thank you for your honesty. it is so tempting in a hard time like this to try to bury your darkest feelings, but exposing them to light is EXACTLY what Jess would have wanted. Saying a prayer for your continued peace and journey through grieving.
x- madison
In tears. I said to my friends, I am not sure if it was possible but I am possibly even MORE inspired by Jess now. She taught me all those first big lessons and now she reminds me of them constantly.
I can’t imagine what you are going through but so inspired by the way you are navigating it.
Big love to you (and all the girls).
xxx
Thank you so much Emily. I couldn’t agree more. She inspires me every single day.
xx
I had a dream about Jess last night. I told her about the profound impact she had on my life & how much she inspired me. We both cried. And then as the universe has it, I woke up to this beautiful email. Thank you for sharing Mel. Beautifully written. Continuously sending you so much love xxxx
That is so beautiful Jenna.
Thank you for sharing.
xx
Hi Melissa,
Just wanted to let you know that I am sending you all of my love. The thought of loosing any of my girls makes my heart ache. I cannot fathom the pain you are feeling but as always I am so grateful for your words and your ability to share your truthfulness. How blessed you are to have such a beautiful and supportive husband.
I didn’t know Jess but her passing has lead me to discover her story, and her journey and I am so glad that beautiful strong women like her, and you, exist to help and guide vulnerable women like me.
Thank you for all that you do.
Isabelle. X
Dear Melissa! Words cant express my feelings for the loss of your dear friend
Jess! May time give you peace and healing for your loss! Jess
I didnt know you but you were a very special person! R.I.P.
Sending you lots of love and light Melissa!
Gods Bless my darling Melissa!
Hi beautiful,
I was heartbroken to hear about Jess and even though I had never met her I felt through knowing you that I knew her also and I was devestated for you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. For the worlds loss. I picture Jess now every time I do a coffee enema and know it would crack her up (: been thinking of you and wanted to send you an abundance of love darling girl.
Nic xoxox
Ah Melissa, I was in tears reading this. You are an incredible strong woman and thanks for sharing the love. Big hugs to you and angels all round XX X
Such a beautiful and moving tribute Melissa. Jess was such an important part of my own healing journey and having a safe space that I could go to when I needed support and love.
I will continue to share her passion, her love, and her kindness through my own site. xxx
This is truly beautiful, thank you.
Hi Mel,
Firstly, I’m so sorry for your loss. I didn’t know Jess personally but was constantly inspired by her strength, courage and warmth. She will never be forgotten.
Thank you for writing such a beautifully inspiring piece! Your words are so powerful and always make me look at life in new, profound ways.
Thank you for constantly inspiring so many people!
Sending lots of love your way xxx
A truly beautiful post & beautiful words! xx
HI Mel
This is truly beautiful!
I met Jess at the Brisbane Gig, after reading her books, blogs and learning so much from her. My heart goes out to her family and friends and you are in my thoughts and wishes. Be Kind. Be Brave. Be Free
Hey Melissa and Nick, I have been sending you both healing love and just wanted to say thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute. Melissa, both you and Jess inspire me so much and one of the things I will miss the most is listening to the way you two giggled on webinars and were so comfortable chatting away to your tribes. You have both touched my life in such a positive way xxxxx
Such a beautiful tribute, Melissa. Thank you for sharing.
I lost someone dear to me a few years ago. Sometimes I still feel grief. But mostly, I feel her everywhere and she is always smiling. She is no longer in pain, wandering in a dark haze of confusion. She is no longer crippled by the illness that drained her spirit. She is free and dazzling and laughing and she’s always with me. Like you, I feel like our connectedness has only grown since she passed away. She looks out for me and lets me know she is here taking care of me in the most serendipitous of ways and she inspires me every single day. She is my angel and I know that Jess is yours 🙂 xxx
Thanks you for sharing your beautiful words Melissa. I lost my bestie not that long ago and only wished someone like you was around to tell me that it was okay to feel all of the emotions associated with a loss. My heart goes out to you and know that your gorgeous girl healed many people in so many ways. All my love to you and those who loved this gorgeous angel.
Beautiful Mel!!! So true and the work Jess did will continue to inspire so many people in the world. She is a true angel that is now watching over all of us. Big hugs during this tough time xx
Dearest Melissa,
My heart broke a little bit more reading this beautiful tribute from you, there are no words for me to describe how saddened I was to hear of Jess passing … so thank you for your words.
Jess was truly and angel and will be missed by so many left here on Earth – my heart goes out to her precious family and friends, especially you, wishing you peace and love at this difficult time.
Donna x x x
Wow i am truly touched and fascinated with you Melissa, opened to me a blast of new realisations of how we are connected and how everything in life is teaching us and expressing love to us. Thank you very very much, im not finding the right words right now, so just …. Love.
Funny enough, as soon as i posted a comment, next page had you thanking me for sharing… And it felt totally as if you are actually answered to me, in spirit. So i wanted to add more to the comment… Thank you so much for such connection and your kind heart and such loving expression in things you do:) fantastic website, you are a beautiful soul and your work is deep and inspiring. Jess is a true being of love, always is.
So so beautiful Melissa. Was hard to read for the tears – so very touching. Thank you for sharing – your pain, your happiness, your gratitude, your message.
My heart aches for you and others so close to Jess, and at the same time I feel how blessed you (we) all were (are) to have had this beautiful inspirational woman in our lives in some way shape or form. An earth angel for sure!
Feeling very grateful, emotional and inspired. Thank you.
Sending you big universal love and hugs. x
Hi sweetie, I’ve been thinking of you so much during this time, and really words can’t express how much love has been floating around the entire planet since the news was spread about Jess moving on to another realm.
I absolutely love what you’ve written here, and love you too. What a perfectly beautiful picture of the two of you.
Thankyou so much for sharing, it’s incredibly healing. Love love love you sister x x x x
You took my breathe away Melissa. Such a beautiful expression of love, loss and celebration.
Love and light to you…and to Jess.
Russ xox
Oh Mel, what a beautiful, insightful and inspirational post on how you’re navigating Jess’ passing. I truly am so inspired by your words and even more in awe of Jess and the impact she had on so many lives.
You are such a beautiful, spirited woman, and Jess was equally as lucky to have been your friend too.
Much love to you xxx
Thank you for you beautiful words. Your post has reinforced how we needed to lean into all the experiences that life brings without judgement. You are in my prayers and thoughts.
Sending so much love to you Melissa- what a beautiful tribute. As many others have said, I think I’m even more inspired by Jess now (if that’s possible). I really love the rainbow metaphor- definitely one to remember.
Lots of love, xxx
Mel, this is beautiful. I resonate with this SO. SO much. Your words have captured my heart. Not only in the loss of Jess but you have bought home that my late Mum is always with me. Just as Jess is always with us. Love you. Buff. xxx
Wow Melissa, such wonderful words! Jess’ kindness and passion impacted so many peoples lives! Your words are so such a strong reflection of the impact she had on you, I can imagine she is fiercely proud of you right now.
Your tribe is sending you so much love now and in the future! Katy x
HI MELISSA THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR HEART AND YOUR TRIBUTE TO YOUR ANGEL FRIEND JESS. I DIDN’T KNOW JESS AND I DON’T KNOW YOU EXCEPT THROUGH THE BEAUTIFUL AND INSPIRING EMAILS I HAVE RECEIVED. I FEEL SUCH SADNESS FOR YOU AND YOUR COMMUNITY AT THIS TIME. MAY OUR GOD, OUR CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE AND EVERYTHING ELSE HOLD YOU IN HIS LOVING ARMS AND LET YOU FEEL AND EXPRESS ALL YOUR LOVE AND FEELINGS OF LOSS FOR YOUR BELOVED JESS. HE IS THERE FOR YOU AND I AM SURE ALL YOUR BEAUTIFUL GIRLS ARE GOING TO BE THERE FOR YOU TOO. I LOST A BEST FRIEND SEVERAL YEARS AGO NOW AND IT WAS DEVASTATING AT THE TIME. IT WAS SUDDEN AND THERE WAS NOT A FUNERAL OR CONNECTION WITH THE FAMILY SO IT TOOK A LONG TIME FOR CLOSURE BUT I AM OK NOW SEVERAL YEARS LATER. SHE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU AND AS YOU TALK WITH HER EVERY TIME YOUR HEART FEELS HER CLOSE (SHE IS STILL HERE IN SPIRIT) SHE WILL INSPIRE YOU FOREVER. THANK YOU FOR BEING BRAVE ENOUGH AND SO HONEST IN SHARING WITH US ALL. GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS. LOVE FROM LOIS IN WINNIPEG, CANADA
So touching Melissa. Beautiful. Jess was beautiful and your words about her are poignant and beautiful.
My condolences for your loss. Your words were truly inspiring. I know Jess will live on through all the people she has touched, including you. It is great you can take so many positives from your experience and show others the love you have for Jess. xo
Thank you Melissa, Such beautiful words I met Jess in Melbourne at her Wellness Warrior tour and I treasure the photo I have of her and I. She inspired me to live a healthier happier life and do what I love. With lots of tears sending love to you and everyone who is inspired by beautiful Jess xx
Both you and Jess have inspired me beyond words and helped me on my journey so much, I am, and will be forever grateful to you both, what an amazing team you are. Your names appear on my daily gratitude list often. The essence of Jess will live on through your work. Thank you for sharing your journey. Sending bucket loads of love and light your way xo
What beautiful words to read. I just found out the tragic news about Jess yesterday. My mouth literally dropped open. I was shocked and saddened. And just the other day before I found out the news, I was thinking of her and her blog, and thinking I needed to read it. And then I found out what happened to her.
I’ve never met her, but she was an inspiration to me to live a life more healthfully (which I still haven’t completely done yet, but having the inspiration from her and others like her is incredible) and full of life.
It’s so brave of you Melissa to share your words and the pain you must be feeling with us all. Thank you for letting us share in your wonderful words and being able to know who Jess was better through your words. I hope that Jess is at peace. I wish I knew her, but I’m glad to have been able to know of her through her wonderful blog.
Hi Melissa,
I love this, thank you so much for sharing this with us. Jess made a big impact on me and I’ve been feeling the grief but haven’t really known how to processes it. Your words and guidance above are beautiful, just what I needed to hear. It feels so right to honour Jess in this way. I know she would have loved this.
Thank you, sending you lots of love. xoxo
What a truly beautiful friend you are Mel! Thank you for sharing your inner truth, your reality. I have been holding you and Jess in my thoughts for days now. I am deeply moved, there are tears in my eyes but…there is hope in my heart. Thank you for being exactly who you are. You both inspire me everyday to keep reaching for my dreams and living my truth and passion. If I make it to Hawaii this year (also on my yearly vision board) I promise to dedicate a meditation to you both! Love and light to you both xxxx
You words are a true reflection of the deep love you had for her. Thank you for opening up this way to us Melissa. It is immensely generous of you. Keep on being the beautiful and inspiring woman that you are …
Absolutely beautifully written and expressed, Mel. I could feel these words coming straight from your heart the whole time I was reading and I feel touched, and blessed, that you’ve shared this with us. I have felt so inspired by Jess’ bravery throughout her journey and especially since her passing. She was never afraid to stand up for what she believed in and she didn’t let the opinions of others waver her resolve. In my health and wellness journey, and in my goal of helping others, I will truly always remember this quality. I can only hope to embody it and to let her legacy live on through me; through us all. With loving kindness all the way sister x
Melissa thankyou for outpouring your heart, emotions and being REAL! Ive never been touched by someone i have never met – Jess was my first insight to a healthier mind and body. I have her to thank for alot of things. I am in awe of the sisterhood you girls created, what a blessing to have each other and share your love for a positive, healthy life! Lots of Love to you all and again thankyou! xx
Loads of love and hugs to you and your family Mel plus everyone who loved Jess. I met you both at Utopia in Sydney last year and it was wonderful to meet two people who have and will continue to inspire me everyday.
xo
Holding you in my heart Mel, I have been thinking of you a lot since hearing about Jess.
This is a truly beautiful post and I know what strength it would have taken for you to write it, let alone so eloquently and potently. I love the way you spoke about the bands of a rainbow being like all of our emotions – so touching.
..and that photo of the two of you…no words!
I know Jess’s spirit will live on through you and millions of people around the world, making this world a better and brighter place.
x
Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful piece us Melissa. I can’t even imagine how difficult this has been for you. You have constantly inspired me and I love receiving and reading your blogs, filled with such amazingness. It’s such a nice way to start my day!! Sending you the biggest hugs, love and smiles, and feel the embrace of love that we are all sending you…Sam xox
Oh Mel, Thank you for sharing. I feel your pain & of course your love. I first saw you & Jess together on Health Talks and from there have followed you both religiously. You both have opened a new world for me. Although I still have some unhealthy habits to kick (which I desperately wish I could). I was not educated in what was in the food I was eating, connecting with my soul & truly nurturing myself. I have changed so much to help my life because of you & Jess. I found out about Jess passing on the way to my Dads house in the country. So I got there no internet. It killed me because I was so sad & could not connect online toread what happened. I woke up I the morning with a song in my head. Top of the world by The Carpenters. Which I now associate with Jess. I have cried & cried for her. But am with you that we can take what she installed in us & make her proud. Big big Love & hugs to you Mel.
Exactly Sallie, let’s make her proud and take what she taught us all so beautifully.
xx
xxx
Such beautiful words. This deeply moved me. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much Claire, she really was so very special <3
So beautifully written Mel, much love and strength to you.. Jess is such an inspiration, how grateful we all are to have stumbled upon her blog, heard her speak, read her amazing book, connected through social media, or for those lucky few, been a part of her special tribe and sisterhood.. It will never be okay that she is gone, but what a legacy to leave, i think it’s up to all of us now.. Much love.. Courtney xx
It sure is Courtney. Let’s take what she taught and lead by example. Let’s make Jess proud.
xx
So beautiful Melissa.
Hughs & kisses xo nat
Thanks beautiful, hugs and kisses right back at you x
Love to you Melissa and thankyou for writing this post. I discovered Jess a few years ago and she has transformed my life and the lives of my three beautiful kids, has inspired me to lead the life and do the work I came here to do with love and lead me to my online beautiful women that are my inspiration, my heros and who I admire, without you beautiful ladies my life would still be very different. The biggest gift I have learnt through Jess is loving myself and being gentle with myself. And somehow this beautiful message has been stronger since she has passed. I will definately continue to grow this and its a countless gift I now show my Daughters.xxx
Hi Sheri,
What an amazing gift to give to your three beautiful daughters. Jess is an amazing teacher and I totally get what you mean about her message being stronger now she has passed. I feel the same way and I feel more connected to her than ever before. It’s beautiful and comforting.
Keep being the example for your daughters and please send them my love.
xx
when i first read the email about jess passing i was shocked and devastated. i knew she was sick but had always expected that she would be ok. and then i was really surprised at how close i felt to jess just by following her blog over the years. (it was my favourite part of the day to sit down and read what she had written!) she was so much more than just a blog, she changed my entire life. i am forever grateful. and so sad that we wont see or hear her encouraging and inspiring words no more. a massive loss. but as you said, the best thing we can do is embody everything she stood for, and be proud of being healthy, wellness addicts. and do coffee enemas. for jess. she was a legend! when i saw you both speak in perth last year you both seemed to be on the same level, like you were nearly blending into one, it was really lovely to see such a beautiful friendship. i wish you love and guidance through this time. i cant imagine what losing jess must be like for you. all the best melissa. xx
Thank you so much for your kind words and love Emma, I can really feel it. You’re exactly right Jess and I spoke the same language and my heart feels like a piece is missing. I know she is with me always but the physically separation is still something I am getting my head around.
That Perth event with her was one of the best days of my life, I will never forget it and I am so glad you got to witness that angel in action.
xx
Beautiful words for a beautiful girl. I’m truly heartbroken for you Mel and all of your amazing sisters. Yes, LETS make her proud xxx
Thank you so much Leila, Let’s DO IT!
Such beautiful and heart felt words Melissa. Thank you for sharing. Sending so much love <3
Thank you so much Renae I can feel your love.
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Dear Mel,
Very much thinking of your during the loss of someone so very, very special in so many ways. This was so beautifully written Mel and brought a smile. Jess wore her values on her sleeve and had such a generosity of spirit and was so wise, human, brave and loyal. She stood for so much and was a real advocate, teacher and social change agent. I am so grateful I got to experience her voice and its one I will really miss hearing from. And then I think about the rich legacy she has has left behind and I know from deep within that all Jess stood for will continue to shine and she is never far away. As Thomas Campbell says “to live in the hearts we leave behind is not to die”. Love and many blessings to her best friend Melanie Elliot & all of Jess’s soul sisters, ground cafe and all of the wellness community. To Tallon who she described as her favourite person in the world and Jess’s Dad, Col who was beaming with such pride on the night of her Brisbane tour. What a beautiful moment/night that was. Etched in my heart forever. Big love also to Edie and Ziggy who will know doubt be feeling the loss too. Mel – there is a beautiful song by Ronan Keating called ‘I hope you dance’ I thought you and others may like. Yes Jess I can hear your words “feeling is healing”. Xxx
Perfectly said Lynda, thank you so much for all your love and support I can feel it.
xx
Thank you so very much for writing this! The fact that her website is gone since her passing, made me miss her even more. I wanted to read her all over again, see her again,… So I’m beyond grateful that her loving tribe of soul sisters decided to honour her so I can soak it all up again. I think this could be the first time I feel such grief for a person passing I never met in person (I’m from Belgium). But she did change me for the better, she inspired me endlessly, she teached me so much through her loving and compassionate writing. Well, she was Jess! She was love, she IS love! And she’s still out there for every one of us. She’s in us. She will keep on guiding us. She feels like a blanket over our shoulders when we’re crying (for her). That big bright star is shining every day from our sky since she took her wings. And sure we do feel her presence. I am even more committed to love, be kind, patient, surrender now. Let’s keep on spreading her legacy. I possibly would not be studying to become a health coach if I hadn’t stumbled upon her website. I maybe would not have found you… Because, let me tell you too Melissa, I feel about the same admiration for you, darling! Your sincerety and honesty is magnificent! You too inspire so many people around the globe. Your honest smile is one of the biggest and brightest I’ve ever seen. Keep on doing what you’re doing. The world needs more of this to amp up the loving vibes. We’re all in this together. And sure honey, I feel for you! This loss must be very hard to digest for you. But you’ve got this. Keep on feeling your feelings, everything is ok. Sending you all my love… x Isabel x P.S.: Sorry for this way too long comment, but I couldn’t help it. I had to let it out… Thank you for letting me.
Isabel your comment made me well up. Everything you are saying is exactly right and I am so glad you loved and got to experience Jess through her work, she is magnificent! Thank you so much for your love and kind words it felt like you were wrapping a nice warm blanket around my shoulders as I read your comments. I am sending you so much love and I hope I get to hug you one day 😉
Such beautiful, honest and deeply moving words darling Melissa how you have navigated this difficult time is beyond incredible and inspiring I have thought of you both everyday and sending bucket loads of love. Jess is one inspiring lady and you were so blessed to have each other her incredible energy will live on everywhere. Love you x x Ruth
You’re exactly right Ruth. It’s comforting knowing she is everywhere smiling and laughing with me always.
P.S I will be in Perth this year and can’t wait to hug you.
xx
My deepest condolences Melissa, I could not imagine how you feel, and I would not want to find out any time soon, to be honest.
But I’m deeply moved and love how you write about her and how you write about loss. I will write ” I am love, that love is all around me, that my truth is love and that you can close your eyes and in an instant you can return back to love” somewhere with block letters, I think I will write it on the wall in front of my bed so I can see it everyday when I wake up.
I love you and your work! Thank you!
Big hug,
Katriin
Great idea Katriin I might just do the same 😉 Thank you for your kind words. xx
Love this. Brought tears to my eyes.
Thank you for reading Bridget <3
Thank you, Melissa, for sharing your thoughts!
When I got to the line where you wrote, ‘Think about what you truly admired in Jess, than fully and completely embody that quality,’ I literally opened a note on my Evernote and started typing every awesome feeling I got when her newsletter would land in my inbox or she shared a picture of herself on one of her adventures on her Instagram. While I had begun writing with the hope of finding atleast five qualities or attributes about her that made her so attractive, I ended up writing 6 short paragraphs, full of all the positive feelings and notions she channeled. Through this exercise I was better able to understand her influence in my life and why she made a difference, even though we never met.
Some of the things I wrote in that note were:
-Jess was like an invincible summer in the dreariest winter.
-Jess was a living example that it is possible to live the dream.
-Jess seemed very caring and dedicated to the people close to her, and she reminds me of my friend Lauren because of this affection towards others. Both women possess a hospitable and welcoming demeanor that I have admired for a long time and wish to embody, myself.
Thank you again for sharing, Melissa. Just by writing this tribute, Jess’ beautiful, sunny presence was felt once more, now radiating through your words.
Hi Stacey,
Thank you for your beautiful words. Jess is an amazing teacher and I loved hearing what you have learned from her. Go and embody these qualities and know she is always in your heart.
xx
So much love Melissa, thank you for this beautiful piece xoxo
I have felt such great loss over someone I have never met, I have constantly found myself thinking of Jess over the past couple of weeks as I go about my day. She impacted the lives of so many, and I was no exception. I loved reading her blogs and seeing her passion sparkle out of her eyes on her Wellness TV episodes. It was through Jess that I started following your blog Melissa, and between the two of you, you have helped guide me through my health journey. I had the pleasure of seeing you both onstage in Perth last year, and your ease together reminded me of my beautiful best friend.
I have been worried about you, and have been checking your blog regularly as I knew you would post when you were ready. Reading your post tonight I sobbed, and at the same time felt a sense of calm. Social media can be ugly at times, but it can also be uniting and powerful and positive.
Thank you to Jess, an incredible human who leaves such a mark on all of us and thank you to you Melissa. Be kind to yourself in your sorrow and know that you have all of us here beside you, we have your back always.
xxx
Thank you so much Kathryn, you are so kind. I can really feel your love and support and for that I am super grateful. Jess is an incredible being (you’re right) and her essence will live on.
I will be in Perth at the end of the year and I would love to hug you in person.
Stay well darling.
xx
Mel, thanks for your touching words. I too have cried my heart out not only over Jess, but at the thought of what her soul sisters were feeling. I had the absolute pleasure of meeting you and Jess at her retreat and will always feel so blessed to have had the privilege of being in her presence.
You are completely right. She is everywhere. Her soul lives on shining brighter than ever xxx
Thank you so much Kim. I am so glad you got to experience her. xx
I love you Melissa. You’re divine xx Sending you love beautiful soul <3
beautiful baby. Feel so blessed to have had the time and space to grieve together, share funny stories about Jess and just be. Love you xxx
Thank you, Melissa, for writing this beautiful tribute to your dear friend, Jess — and for sharing your feelings all of us.
Aloha,
xo.
Suzanne
You’re so welcome Suzanne. Thank you for being here and taking the time to comment.
xx
Hi Melissa, I just stumbled across your post now…. I also sorry for your loss but am also so inspired by your words. I lost my beautiful, devoted and loving a Dad 15 months ago and every word you wrote made sense to me.
Our loved ones are everywhere and they support us to be better versions of ourselves everyday.
Thank you for sharing, it made me smile to know we’re all on similar journeys and we’re not alone.
Lots of love to you xx
Thank you so much Sofia.
I am sending you so much love.
xx