A few years back, I had a shocking realisation about myself.
I realised that even though I prided myself on my ability to listen to my body and trust my intuition… I didn’t actually trust myself at all.
Instead, I’d actually built myself a prison — I’d created a cage of rigid rules that I followed religiously. I was convinced that following them strictly was the “spiritual” thing to do.
And seriously, I had rules for EVERYTHING…
I eat this, I don’t eat that.
I drink this, I don’t drink that.
I say these types of things, I don’t say these.
I hang out with these types of peeps, and not those ones.
I go to bed at this time, I wake up at this time.
I vote with my dollar, so I spend money on this, but not that.
I give to this charity.
I must exercise daily.
I must write in my gratitude journal twice a day.
I only read these types of books (and never those ones).
I meditate twice a day.
Yoga is my church, I must go daily.
… and the list went on.
This rigidity felt suffocating, so one day, I decided to do something radical: drop it all and see what happened.
I’ll be honest, at first, I had some fear about this little experiment.
I was worried that I would fall off the bandwagon completely, and start eating fast food, drinking soft drink, and partying again.
But do you know what? The exact opposite happened.
When I dropped all the heavy dogma and actually TRUSTED my body and soul, something happened that blew my mind… I was naturally drawn to the healthy food, to my meditation pillow, and to my journal, but WITHOUT the dogma. It was so liberating. I felt so much lighter and more free.
And the funny thing was, I could have given myself that freedom at any point. The power was — and always will be — in my own hands. Same with you, beautiful.